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Hello everyone..its been weeks, months, ages since I posted here..yeah have been kinda busy but that’s no excuse..anyways, this one comes as a duet from me and a very special friend SS..It begins with a famous quote by Lang Leav..its more of the the thought continued..Happy Reading! 🙂

“It was a question I had worn on my lips for days – like a loose thread on my favourite sweater I couldn’t resist pulling – despite knowing it could all unravel around me.

“Do you love me?” I ask.
In your hesitation I found my answer.”

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and then in that moment, I felt like turning back the last few seconds of my life..
I wish those words never left my mouth..
I wish I hadn’t really asked that question..!
The question that changed ME..!!
I guess living in the myth was much better than living with reality slapped on my face!!

But what was done, was done!

I knew I had to live with it..because I could not imagine a life without her!!
though I could not make her love me, I could not let her go!
she was an important a part of me..like oxygen for my lungs..
her one smile made my entire day..
and I could stay far but could not just break off !!

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I wondered, what was the feeling inside her when I had been loving her all thoughout!
What did she feel about :
the happiness that we felt inside us whenever we were together?
Those endless chats whole night with no sleep in the eyes?
those unsaid things that we understood .. just by looking into each other’s eyes?
Was all this not Love for her??
Well may be not..but for me it was like staying with an angel in heaven..
There is nothing more I could ask from my life!!

And we decided to continue being friends.. little aloof but not away..!

I could still see her everyday..we still exchanged greetings..
for me, being around her was far more meaningful than giving a name to our relationship! 

All I ever wanted was to be around her..to take care of her..
and to be there.. whether needed or not..!!

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and then one day..she came to me..with a little serious look on her face..
I wondered if she had been in trouble..
We sat down and she said “We cannot be friends anymore..!!”
and my entire world crashed down..I almost had tears in my eyes..!

but she stopped them and then jumping, beaming with happiness,
she fell in my arms and uttered those words I had been dying to hear
 “Stupid! We cannot be friends anymore because I have fallen in Love with you!”

and she sat down on her knees, and in the most gentlemanly manner she said :
“Will you marry me?”

And I yelled out a YYYEESSSSSSSS!! 🙂

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And I am happy that I kept clinging to that vague hope..
the hope that kept me going since that dreadful day..

probably the only hope that was left in me..
because Love, as they say, NEVER EVER dies!!

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What goes around..comes around!!

An attempt at a story (an excerpt) with a little different style..not sure if  anyone has ever thought/written about it..The uniqueness is that the last paragraph is exactly a copy of the first paragraph albeit read backwards..and still completes the feelings..!

 
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..it made my heart ache..the very thought that you didn’t even care to ask how I was..after all that I have been through..it created a deep hole in my heart..no matter how much I tried to ignore it..no matter how many times I uttered “Huh? Even I give a damn!”, each one came out with a sigh of melancholy and hope..may be you just might ask..may be you have been busy..my heart kept waiting..my eyes were stuck on the phone..still there was nothing from you..I kept waiting for you cause the candle of hope still shimmered through the darkness of my life..I knew that things were not the same as they used to be..somewhere deep down I knew that times had changed and I no more had the right to expect anything from you..sadly, our heart takes a lot of time to accept what the mind already knows..even after everything that had happened between us, those memories never seemed to leave my mind, haunted me every moment..sometimes expecting someone to do something turns out to be as painful as expecting him not to do it at all.. reality and realizations struck me late and in a pretty hard way..my mind had become a twisted place crammed with several thoughts, both dark and sparkling..I just wasn’t sure which thoughts were to be nurtured..
 
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I guess I was just very confused with what I wanted..it was a stage where I was too messed up to be sorted out..!!
 
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I just wasn’t sure which thoughts were to be nurtured..my mind had become a twisted place crammed with several thoughts, both dark and sparkling.. reality and realizations struck me late and in a pretty hard way..sometimes expecting someone to do something turns out to be as painful as expecting him not to do it at all..even after everything that had happened between us, those memories never seemed to leave my mind, haunted me every moment..sadly, our heart takes a lot of time to accept what the mind already knows..somewhere deep down I knew that times had changed and I no more had the right to expect anything from you..I knew that things were not the same as they used to be..I still kept waiting for you cause the candle of hope still shimmered through the darkness of my life..still there was nothing from you..my eyes were stuck on the phone..my heart kept waiting..may be you have been busy..may be you just might ask..no matter how many times I uttered “Huh? Even I give a damn!” each one came out with a sigh of melancholy and hope..no matter how much I tried to ignore it..it created a deep hole in my heart..after all that I have been through..the very thought that you didn’t even care to ask how I was..it made heart ache..
 
Does it makes sense to you?? 
Your views/comments are welcomed.. 🙂

YOU!

I did not..

realize when and how..

YOU entered my life..

How we ended up..

being the way we are..

All i now know is that..

I have started liking YOU..

more than i ever thought i would..!

P.S. I love you!

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I could not see when it happened..

I didn’t realize when my heart was lost..

I didn’t even know..

it was singing the tunes..

which made the melody..

melodious again.. 🙂

P.S. I love you!

Here I am today..

Thinking about YOU..

almost the entire day..

Dreaming about YOU..

almost the entire night..

Wondering where have YOU been all these years..

And thanking God..

that finally YOU are here! 🙂 🙂

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Once here..

YOU will be always with me..

Nothing can ever come in between..

I wonder what will happen..

when times end..

will our love outstay our own story??

Or will it end..

and never be heard again?? 😦

P.S. I love you!

Whenever such thoughts pass by..

Worries take over..

the thrill and enjoyment..

But that wink of YOUR eye..

and the curve of YOUR lips..

Seem to take away all my fears..

And makes my heart fly again.. 🙂

P.S. I love you!

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It is YOUR love that rocks my world..

The only stone that keeps me firm..

When the rest of my life is a mess..

YOU still make me glitter..

with hope..!

P.S. I love you!

A hope that i know..

will last forever..

A hope i can blindly have faith on amongst all the strife!

I am so happy to have found YOU my angel..

With each passing day..

my love increases a step more..

Both for YOU and for my own life..! 🙂

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P.S : For everyone who has missed me, I am back..after almost a month of unexplained absence..have been a little lost for a while..work and other priorities..writing may have taken a backseat but its still there..guess it can never ever go..have been giving words to imagination all throughout..and that thought makes me happy! 🙂 and nothing better than “YOU” which kind of explains the long absence..somehow you can never pen down some feelings..no matter how hard you try..this is a vague attempt..probably not even close to the real feelings one might have on these occasions..but still..somehow portrays the emotions one can imagine to happen..This is another duet with Shruti..somehow this girl understands everything I ever want to say..I love you! Click on her name to visit her awesome blog..

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The road of life..!

I loved writing this one..Another duet with Shruti, a beloved soul..someone who I look upto..She has a beautiful blog..Drop by her blog by Clicking here to be mesmerised by her poems..! I bet she will wow you 🙂

 

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In the play of life..there are equal number of truths and lies..

Just like there are equal number of worries and smiles..

Life never does injustice..to me or to you..

Its gives you everything you deserve..

Nothing is ever, ever a due..!

 

 

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What begins has to end..

What ends begins again..

sorrow paves path for joy..

And joy is interspersed with pain..

Nothing is permanent in life’s lane..!

 

 

 

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So keep walking on life’s road..

You will find both flowers and stones..

When you find those stones, never make a wall..

Rise up eleven times, if ten times you fall..!

 

 

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As you keep marching along,

a different energy you will feel..

somewhere beneath all the difficulties..

the waves of strength you will breathe..

🙂 🙂

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She had loved him her entire life,

Right from the day, she learned what Love meant..

One smile on his face made her heart fly,

Being by his side always, was all she dreamt.. 

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Both grew up as the time passed by,

Helping each other in all the life’s dealings..

They both remained the best of friends,

She could, however, never tell him her true feelings..

 

She tried to tell him many times,

But professing love wasn’t that easy a task..

She always kept dreaming of it in her mind..

To marry him, if he would ever ask..

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But one day, a bad news broke in,

In her heart, she felt a terrible pain..

A friend informed her of the tragedy that had taken place..!

She would never see his smile again..

She now cries, sitting by his grave,

With teary eyes and a heart that is broken..

Only if she had confessed her feelings..

She blamed herself for the love unspoken! 

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Sitting and wondering about destiny’s plans..

On his grave she silently puts some flowers,

Imagining what life would have been if he was still here,

And now thinks of him, and cries for hours and hours..!

(To be continued in the second part!)

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Lying on my bed, I wander deep in my thoughts,

And I find no one else but YOU..

Remembering all those moments of togetherness,

Remembering everything that we went through..

I could do anything for being with you,

For that moment when you looked into my eyes..(heart-crushing)

The  time of my life that was spent with you,

Was the period I lived in paradise.. 😀

Those outings together and long mid night calls,

Sharing with each other, each moment of the day..

It all seemed to color my b&w world,

I could do anything to make you stay..

Everything seemed to be simple and easy,

Till the time you were there by my side..

Everyone in the world seemed  to be honest and true,

Till I discovered , all that was a lie..!

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I found it hard to convince my heart,

What my head, probably, already knew..

But all those moments we had, were a part of your game..

Of that I had no clue..! 😦

I still cannot find a reason behind your betrayal,

No matter how hard I think..

Out of nowhere you came into my life,

N then  you were lost in a blink..!

All I am is confused, for it all happened so sudden,

I am still here trying to connect the dots..

The time that was spent in talking to you everyday,

Was for long, spent in your thoughts..

But now I am through..over with everything that happened,

Over with the dreams  that things could have happened between us..

I have forgiven you for everything you did to me,

(we always end up forgiving the person we once loved)

For I want peace of mind..for me..for you..for both of us..

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I don’t blame you for anything in life,

I don’t blame you for leaving me alone..

I thank God for saving me from seeing the worst,

And I am glad that you are gone..!

Of’course I don’t love you anymore and  trust me, I don’t hate you either,

I have really forgiven you, from down deep..

I have moved on in life..I have moved ahead,

And any sort of relation with you..I just don’t want to keep..

(not even the hatred one!)

Whatever happened, I have learnt from it..and I have no regrets ,

I know somewhere my prince charming is still waiting for me..

Till then I am still clinging on hope..for I have a deep FAITH,

That God is busy writing the BEST love story for me.. 🙂 🙂

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A New Sun..

Another duet with a beautiful soul..Shruti Fatehpuria from A Shade of Pen..An amazing writer who wows me with every single piece of her write..This is my attempt to recreate the magic with her..yet again :)

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Counting the stars in the night..

I still feel the warmth of sunshine..

With my mind wrapped in a million thoughts..

I wonder if every end is truly a start..!

I try making patterns with the stars in the sky..

And in each one i imagine YOU..

Am I the only one who has been hurt..

Does this end really initiates a new start..?

The stars tell a tale..

Of love, of hurt, of pain, of smiles..

Every emotion clings to my heart..

Why do i need to let go of the past?

The past..that was pleasant..

soothing with its own sweet charm..!

The past that sometimes makes me break down..

and sometimes elates me with ecstasy..

The shine of the stars reflect a light so bright..

That I am lost in thoughts yet again..

even though i make myself ready for a new start!!

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Moments come and go..

Each leave a mark of its own..

I am baffled at the impact..

Can this little heart sustain a fresh start??

What if things go awry..

What if i am again trapped..

Will the heart ever heal..

Or will it never again believe in new starts..?

Loads of questions get stuck down deep..

But somehow I still hold on hope..

I have faith that things will be different this time..

Its difficult to erase those memories..

But gradually it will fade..

The faith is strong in my heart..

Yes, I am ready..

Ready for a new start! 🙂

With a faith unwavering, I wipe all tears..

regardless of tomorrow, I walk ahead..

Wherever I will land, I will learn to smile..

Nothing lasts forever and its been a while..

With renewed energy, strong is my heart..

And forward I roll to begin the start.. 🙂

Happy and joyful..I put my steps ahead..

Colors begin to fill my world..

Which had long been lifeless and dead..

I move with all the energy and confidence..

Rising a level more with every single move..

Keep on playing the music of life..

Because I am back and ready to groove 🙂 🙂

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No matter what happens in life,

Never sit back n never stop living..

Because if God has taken something from you..

I am sure, a lot more HE will be giving..!

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Never lose those precious moments in life..

Let go of the things that make you sad..

Because no matter how crazy things get..

Trust me Life ain’t that bad..!

 Its all about holding on..

Even after u have had a fall..

You need to stand up and walk for yourself..

When u cannot even seem to crawl..!

Keep smiling and keep spreading those cheers..

Whenever you get a chance..

Life will always keep rocking..

All you got to do is keep on a soulful dance..!! 😀 😀

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No matter how tough or struggling it is..

Walk the world like you are the QUEEN..

Or walk as if, you don’t care who is..!! 🙂 🙂

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Happiness costs nothing!

Another attempt at Ekphrastic poetry..I came across this picture in google images..Loved it!
No matter how bad my day ends up..One look at this cute picture is enough to bring a smile on my face..

A smile that spreads from Ear to Ear! 🙂 🙂

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Life takes us through loads of ups and downs..

The ups, we enjoy..

The downs..we struggle..

There are moments that make us sad..

There are moments that brighten up our days..

Its not about expecting everyday to pass out smoothly..

Its about gathering the experiences throughout the journey..

 

 After all that I have been through..
After all those times that I have stood up after a fall..

Here I am..

Falling..but still rising back..!

Being cheated..but still loving..!

Broken every moment..but still recovering..!

Dying a bit everyday..but still growing..!

Crying inside..but still smiling..!

Tied with a rope..but still moving..!

Tired..but still working..!

Failing..but still learning..!

Lost the wings..but still flying..!

Loads to say..but still listening patiently..!

A responsible lady holding up my world..but still a child at heart..! 😀

Photo courtsey : Google Images.

 

I am there too..!

Another poem that is close to me..This was written around seven years back..when I was 16..! The prime teen-age..faced with loads of issues..choosing the right career being the major one! Age when all you dream is glitz and glamour, every second thing you see looks tempting..when making friends and losing them happens as frequently as mood-swings..when forever meant forever..when you start realizing who are the true ones..when you start dreaming of doing something in life..when responsibility falls on your shoulders for the first time in life..when it is difficult to differentiate between the right and the wrong paths..when you think you have had no significance uptil now and you have ended up as a total scum..when you feel the need to be wanted and loved..when you feel that nobody has the right to cut the wings of your dreams..when there are more questions than ever and you seem to find answers to none..when you are all confused and messed up..!

This is a call to The Almighty..to help me do something worthy in life..to prove my existence..!

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Make me aware of my presence,

I feel I have no significance..

Make me a part of your world too,

Let me feel..that I am there too..!

I feel nobody understands me,

I feel nobody knows me..

I feel I have no worth,

I feel no worthier than dirt..!

Like a man standing in the crowd,

I stand lonely shouting aloud..

O Lord God! Tell me my worth,

Which shall make me feel proud..!

Let the world know of my presence,

Let the world identify my appearance..

Just give me ONE opportunity,

To become the protagonist of your story..!

I will not let you down,

Just give me one chance..

One chance to prove the world,

That I am there too..!!

I am there too..!!