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A Devil With(out) a Soul..!!

And we fell in Love..we had the perfect marriage that anyone would dream of..the best designer dresses, favourite music band, red roses and a lot of happy faces all around..we were too excited to wonder how quickly everything had happened..we had met just a few days back and here we were taking the BIG step! We said “I do” like two people who had been waiting since ages to be by each other’s side had been given a lifetime chance to be together..through thick and thin..! I always called him “Devil” for the little mischiefs and pranks he played on me..and each time I did that, he would add “with a soul” with a smirk on his cute face. Now while putting the ring on my finger and tying me to himself for lifetime, he said “with a soul, and now a soulmate too!” and made me blush..!

We were both happy until that day..when the mask he had been wearing all throughout was out in the open and he showed his true colours..!!


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Everyone left the room..there was silence and darkness all around..both in the room as well as in my life..I wondered what I had done to deserve this..was saying the truth out loud that punishing rewarding..??

And then there was a creak of the door..a little light followed in..disturbing the darkness..the darkness of the room..the darkness of my life!! I waited to see who had cared enough to turn against the world and walk in when everyone chose to walk out..and I saw his shadow..it didn’t take me long to realize that it was him..! Of’course it was HIM..! who else could it be..!!

I have had a similar sequence in my dream,
but all this would have happened only after I was dead..
Here in reality, I was alive..!
My soul would fly up to heaven and glowing light would enlighten my soul..
In my dreams, it was an angel..
but here in reality, it was the Demon!

He came near me..held me up and said..”You nasty little creature!I How did you even think that you could make my family and friends go against me..Happy now? Now that you know that they believe me and not you..! hah! now stay here till you get back to your senses and realize what a mess you have got yourself into!! Either find a way to clean it up or rot here till the last drop of your blood dries!” His words broke not only the deafening silence of the room but also broke all my hopes of living surviving breathing..!

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And he left..I heard the lock on the door moving..the final confirmation that I was captivated..at a place that I once thought to be my own house! The flood of my tears that had been held up for so long, came rushing out..as if the gates of a dam had been opened up! I could no more breathe as if someone had squeezed my lungs or cut the oxygen supply in the room! For once I expected someone..anyone, from the entire crowd standing right outside that door, to believe me..trust me with my words..give me a chance to explain what exactly had happened and not the twisted version that they knew..!

But alas! I felt like the world had ended and I was the only one dying surviving..!!

and now I knew..he really was a DEVIL!
With Without a soul..
and definitely without a soulmate..!!

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Life..Goes on..!

A duet with Shruti..
we read the first two lines somewhere as a quote
and words started to flow..

My real self wanders elsewhere, far away..
wanders on and on invisibly and has nothing to do with my life..

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Wanders into places unknown..
doing the things undone..
relaxing under the serene moonlight..
waking up with the glowing sun!
living a life that’s worth..! 

And yet sometimes I come back
Hoping to catch a glimpse
Of what was once my reality
And today, it remains a silhouette of 
My unfulfilled dreams..

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Sometimes I sit back and wonder..
Which world is it that I want more..?
The one that makes me smile and sit back in awe..
Or the one that makes me feel down and sore..!

 I try helplessly
And still I fail
Caught in the alternating lanes
Of dreams and reality
Of truth and illusion
And I stand at the edge
Torn amidst desires and nightmares..

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 I decide to go on with my life..
As the way it has been so long..
Reality during the day..
And fantasy through the night..
Living in my own world that is unknown..
singing with joy, life’s beautiful song 🙂

 I hum the happy tunes
I smile the broad smile
Only a few people know
Of the tears beneath the eyes
And the loud sound of my cry
In the dead of the night..

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 I decide to build a bridge with everything that comes my way..
a tiny pebble or a big stone..
Hiding all the tears and spreading all the smiles..
That’s d way hun, my life goes on  🙂 🙂

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I have Changed..!!

Sitting by the window pane..watching the raindrops fall..

Several thoughts flash in my mind..

And they make me think that I have changed..! 

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I used to love my friends a lot..

They meant the entire world to me..

But soon I found out their true feelings..

And heard them speak ill about me

So I gradually stopped caring for them..

And the conversation melted down to just some formal talks..

And then they all say that I have changed..

If that’s what you call a change..

Then, YES I HAVE CHANGED..! 

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I used to poke my nose in every trifle matter..

Used to give loads of unwanted suggestions and advise..

(because I really thought them to be my own)

Nobody took me seriously..and nobody seemed to care..

And now, I don’t utter an unwanted word..

They say I am not interactive and I don’t speak my thoughts out..

And then they all say that I have changed..

If that’s what you call a change..

Then, YES I HAVE CHANGED..! 

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I used to think about others before thinking about myself..

Used to care about people a lot..

But, sadly, I could never get that concern in return..

Infact often got to know facts from others, which I expected to be informed first..

So I became silent..never spoke out my plans well..

And then they all say that I have changed..

If that’s what you call a change..

Then, YES I HAVE CHANGED..!

they_say_i've-118039 In the beginning I think I was trying to be clever..

Because I was trying to change the entire world to suit my own needs..

But now I am learning to be wise..

So I am trying to change myself..

I am trying to have faith in the thought that says..

“Its easier to protect your feet with slippers..

Than to carpet the entire Earth..”

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And so..

When they say I an garrulous and infuriating,

I keep mum..

When they say I don’t vent out my opinions..

I can’t and I actually don’t want to..

But still I try to..!

When they find a fault in me..

I try hard not to give them another such chance..

I think I have stopped living my life my way..

And I am trying to live it their way (silly me)

I now say things, which I otherwise wouldn’t say..

I now do things, which I otherwise wouldn’t do..

I now speak to such people, which I otherwise wouldn’t talk to..

I am now in company of such people, which I otherwise would never think of..

i_didn't_change,_you_just_never_knew_me-560513 And even after all this..

What I get to hear is that I have changed..

If that’s what you call a change..

Then YES, I ADMIT  I HAVE CHANGED..

 

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A beautiful dreamy trio with two beautiful blogger friends..Rahul and Shruti..Both of them have amazing blogs..Click on their names to visit their poetic world..!! 🙂 🙂

 

 

As I got down from the Train

I saw so many new faces

Every person had a tale to share

Every person had something to tell

I stood there trapped in the lane

Looking to hold on to that 

Which silently slipped again and again..

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I tried again, tried real hard..

But there was something that was not visible to my eye..

Something that I could feel was there..

Somewhere near..

It called me in many ways..

And I went among the crowd..

To a direction unknown..!

 

 

 

Finally, I found him there

With a completely new face

And a much better outfit.

He is not a kid anymore,

Though I loved the way he looked like.

It kept me standing there for a few seconds,

But with a hope to understand who am I??

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There was something surreal about the reflection

I couldn’t pin what it meant

Was he a part of my inner soul

Or was I dreaming with open eyes

With so much to ponder 

With so much to think

I got lost in the thoughts

As I forgot to blink..

 

 

Several memories flashed by..

I didn’t know which one to relate..

I was lost in my own thoughts..

Lost in my own world..

When suddenly somebody pushed me accidentally..

I got a little confused..

Coming to reality with a sudden knock..!!

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Gosh! Where the hell am I?

Either in a dreamy or real world?

What happened to me?

Where is my inner soul?

This was not an unexpected reality,

But a painful alarm I had been waiting for.

My identity was hidden behind his shadow.

Perhaps, this moment has a few more things to tell about myself..!