Feelings..that you never understood!!

I was there for you every time I felt I was needed..

Anything you’d ask me to do..I undoubtedly would..

coz beneath everything I did, there laid the feelings..

that you never understood..! 😦

 

I heard your whispers, I smiled your smiles..

I felt your feelings, I cried your tears…

I happily took your ignorance in so many situations

And yet tried my best to take away all your fears..

 

You meant the entire world to me..

Your feelings started driving my mood..

There wasn’t a moment I didn’t think about you..

And beneath all that laid feelings, that you never understood.. 

I don’t know how and when you crept into my life..

I don’t know why you looked so familiar to me..

All I know is that whatever, wherever I am today,

Is all I could ever be..!

 

One look at your face and I would forget to blink..!!

All I knew was, to be true you were just too good..

In every conversation we had, my heart would sink!

and beyond all my madness n support lay the feelings,

that you never ever understood..!! 

And now you are there all around..

in every hour of my day..

in every thought of my mind..

in every feeling that I feel..

in every beat of my soul..

and deep down, I wish you felt the same..!!

 

I still hope that one day you’l wake up and miss me.. 🙂

P.S – Yes I am BACK..after almost around 3 months..yeah that’s a long long time..!! Guess I had been off..just lost somewhere and somehow so aptly back to where I should have been all this while..a heartfelt thanks to a friend who prompted me to write this post..thanks! for you brought me back to MY WORLD..where I fit the best..! 🙂 🙂

H-E-A-R-T-B-R-E-A-K

..and he left..not a single word..I kept questioning but he had nothing to say..no excuses..no explanations..just nothing..he did not even make a vague attempt to try to make it work..I kept wondering what made him despise me..betray me? For him it was all so simple..just a “we cannot be friends anymore..its all over now” and that’s it..?! Was it all I had been looking forward to all this while? Just the other day I was planning my life ahead..being by his side for the rest of my life and today..I felt I was having a nightmare and somebody would pinch me back to reality..it all came like tsunami..in just a few moments, it took away everything I had..my entire world had turned upside down..I literally didn’t know how to react to the situation..the fact that we were no more together was yet to sink into my mind and more so, into my heart..my heart, my stomach, the entire body felt empty and hollow..heartbreaks are not always like a bomb explosion, they can even be like a feather falling silently..nobody else, except me, heard or felt the pain..I tried my best to gather the broken pieces and look intact but inside I knew I was shattered, too badly to look like what I had been before the fall..

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I tried my best to gather the broken pieces and look intact but inside I knew I was shattered, too badly to look like what I had been before the fall..nobody else, except me, heard or felt the pain..heartbreaks are not always like a bomb explosion, they can even be like a feather falling silently..my heart, my stomach, the entire body felt empty and hollow..the fact that we were no more together was yet to sink into my mind and more so, into my heart..I literally didn’t know how to react to the situation..my entire world had turned upside down..in just a few moments, it took away everything I had..it all came like tsunami..I felt I was having a nightmare and somebody would pinch me back to reality..just the other day I was planning my life ahead..being by his side for the rest of my life and today..was it all I had been looking forward to all this while? just a “we cannot be friends anymore..its all over now” and that’s it..?! For him it was all so simple..I kept wondering what made him despise me..betray me? he did not even make a vague attempt to try to make it work..just nothing..no explanations..no excuses..I kept questioning but he had nothing to say..not a single word..and he left..

 

P.S : Another attempt at a story (an excerpt) with a little different style..not sure if  anyone has ever thought/written about it..The uniqueness is that the last paragraph is exactly a copy of the first paragraph albeit read backwards..and still completes the feelings..!
Click on the link to read the earlier one : What goes around..comes around!!

Does it makes sense to you?? 

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